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  • Love You to the Moon and Back

    A Real Life Story by Glenn Hansen

    Dedicated to Sweet Judith, wherever you are in God’s universe.

    FINAL CHAPTER

    CHAPTER 20

    About a month before Judy passed away, I started working on a song called “Don’t Want to Say Goodbye (Moon Beams).” I started to write the music with the lyric line that is the title. However, while I recorded a piano track with some strings, I did not want to continue lyrically. I couldn’t bring myself to do it. I knew what I wanted to say, but it was too much for me at the time. I left it as an instrumental, but did not release it to the music streaming services (Spotify, Apple Music etc.) to be publically played.

    About a week and half before her passing, I woke up one morning and the lyrics poured themselves out of me. The words came to me so quickly and easily I had a hard time keeping up as I wrote them down. Now I understood why I did not release the instrumental. It was God and His universe’s way of telling me I wasn’t done with the song. I was glad about the way it worked out. I then recorded the vocal and added instruments to the arrangement and did the mixing and mastering. It was ready for the world now.

    Following are the words to this song. I think it accurately captures my feelings for Judy and how I felt about her impending passing in a thoughtful way. You’ll have to decide for yourself though.

    “Don’t Want to Say Goodbye (Moon Beams)”     

    The clock runs fast, or so it seems

    Don’t want to say goodbye

    We have become so very close

    Our minds meet in the sky

    Our universe connects as one

    I do not question why

    The clock runs fast, or so it seems

    Don’t want to say goodbye

    You light the world with your moon beams

    Don’t want to say goodbye

    I know we will meet once again

    Somewhere beyond the moon

    Just be patient, our time will come

    We will reunite soon

    The clock runs fast, or so it seems

    Don’t want to say goodbye

    Don’t want to say goodbye

    Don’t want to say goodbye

    Moon beams

    By the way, my name is Glenn.

  • Love You to the Moon and Back

    A Real Life Story by Glenn Hansen

    Dedicated to Sweet Judith, wherever you are in God’s universe.

    CHAPTER 16

    Speaking of music, it was around this time that I decided to try and find out more about the man playing piano in the window. We were now almost always acknowledging each other when he was there playing. I know, kind of hard to do so when he’s not playing. lol

    At Riverview Healthcare Centre, there is a lovely, multi-denominational chapel at one end along with a patient hair salon and a beautiful solarium sitting room for patients and their visitors with massive coated windows so you could see and feel the sun directly without overheating. I came to realize that the other set of doors at that end accessed the ward where I saw my “Piano Man” (thank you, Billy Joel).

    One day I decided to go through these doors to the front desk of the ward to try and learn about him. This is when I became aware that these were restricted access doors, so I could not open them without being accompanied by a healthcare centre employee. Curious, I thought. I decided to not pursue this further at this time.

    A few days later, I again went to the ward with the restricted entrance. This time, I was able to meet up with an appropriate employee and asked her about why the doors to the piano man’s ward were locked. Like virtually every other employee I met at Riverview, she was very approachable, friendly, and helpful with a nice educational touch. She explained that the doors were secured for this ward because it housed patients with memory/cognitive issues (illnesses such as Alzheimer’s disease). She further explained exiting the ward was also secure out of concern for these patients wandering off unaccompanied.

    I had heard of this type of secured entrance/exit before from my music performing experiences at seniors’ care homes.  I occasionally went out and played and sang at these types of venues and I remember not being able to get out of the building after my first performance at one. One of the staff at the care home came and explained the secured door concept to me. There was an ever-changing code you had to enter in order to get out of the facility. Like at Riverview, it was to ensure residents with cognitive/memory issues could not wander off unaccompanied. It made perfect sense. Who knew?

    A sense of sadness struck me. There was a pretty good chance my piano man suffered from some sort of worsening cognitive/memory issue. I was very sad for him. He loved to play, but maybe he had very little remembrance of his joy after he finished playing. I was also saddened to think that even though our connections were genuine in the moment, he may not remember them as well.

    Life is arbitrary and unfair. This familiar phrase is so true. To be deprived of happiness and joy because your mind diminishes in this way is terrible. You get locked out from your own happy memories by your own brain. Add to this the declining cognitive function; it must be very frustrating to live with this affliction for both you and those around you. And to think you are aware of this happening until nearly the end must sometimes be exasperating.

    We can think we are invincible when we’re young, some of us for most of our life even, but there is no shortage of ways for life to take a person down at any age. Yet, some of humanity is still afflicted with destructive arrogance. Don’t people realize how small we really are in comparison to the universe? We should be humble, not arrogant. This whole “life” thing is almost beyond conceptualization and appreciation. Maybe that’s why some turn to arrogance and bullying; to try and have some sense of personal strength and control over the world. But, it’s delusionary and it’s wrong. We need to respect and care about each other. The kind of caring I witness every time I’m at Riverview Healthcare Centre.

    I was disappointed to realize the apparent plight of my piano man. Then I had a nice thought. Even if it was in the moment only, he still experienced some joy while playing and likewise whenever we connected through the window. It brought a smile to my face that maybe I was able to contribute to his life in a positive manner in some way. I was encouraged by this and determined to carry on with our relationship be it as it may.

  • Love You to the Moon and Back

    A Real Life Story by Glenn Hansen

    Dedicated to Sweet Judith, wherever you are in God’s universe.

    CHAPTER 15

    Judy and I did have an opportunity to play music together again one more time with Judy on the bodhran drum and me on guitar and singing. I arranged for us to do a “show” in the “Kitchen” in her ward at Riverview Healthcare Centre for the patients in the ward and a few others. It meant a lot to me and Judy to be able to do this again. And what a grand time it was.

    We played for a full hour to a very receptive audience who seemed to genuinely enjoy the performance. I learned later from staff that we could have played for another hour if we wanted to. Apparently, the patients on the ward loved to listen to live music.

    However, after an hour, Judy had run out of steam. Besides, I had run out of my beverage (sorry, non-alcohol lol) by then, which was necessary for vocal lubrication. My voice needs all the help it can get.

    Whenever I perform, I like to close with “Hey Jude” (a hugely famous Beatles’ song). It features a simple, easy to sing along with chorus at the end that can go on for as long as you would like. It’s the end sing-along aspect of this terrific tune that makes it an ideal closing song as people, whether or not they can sing well, can wail away at the top of their lungs. What a wonderful way to end a show, everybody happily singing along together.

    This show was no exception. Everyone in the “Kitchen” whole heartedly sang along. We all left feeling good, if only for a moment. It was another treasured time for me and Judy. I will always cherish the picture of the two of us playing taken by my friend Dawn, who was at the show along with Carol.

  • Love You to the Moon and Back

    A Real Life Story by Glenn Hansen

    Dedicated to Sweet Judith, wherever you are in God’s universe.

    CHAPTER 11

     An interesting event occurred with regard to the piano player. One day, as I walked by his window, he glanced up and noticed me and nodded to affirm this recognition. I nodded back with a big smile. We continued to look at each other, and I raised my arms and used by fingers as if I was playing an “air” piano. Then I pointed to myself to indicate that I too played piano. His was excited by this and again nodded to me with a big smile. We had connected. We had an instant bonding moment.

    Music connects us all, in this case two musicians that played piano. It was a wonderful moment for both of us. This once again demonstrated the power of music in bringing people together regardless of where they lived, their culture or circumstance. If only this attribute of human behaviour could be carried across to the rest of human communication, endeavours and behaviours.

    I enthusiastically shared this encounter with Judy the next time I saw her. She happily responded to my story as if she felt this musical connection too. Judy is very much a thoughtful, naturally sensing person. She grasps any situation with tremendous intuition and insight.

    Driving home from this visit, I felt very satisfied with the day. Judy and I had a wonderful visit and I knew it really uplifted her and that’s the whole intent on my part; and she uplifted me more than she will ever know. Add to this the connection I made with the piano player in the window, and what more can one ask for? I have so much: food, shelter, good people in my life, enough monetary resources. I don’t want the world. I want a peaceful, non-toxic existence in God’s world. Everything else is superfluous. I’ve never wanted or needed that big house, fancy sports car or other big, so-called status symbols; possessions are not really so big, if you think about it. You do need good health. It’s the key to everything.

    Don’t get me wrong; I encourage people, myself included, to try and excel, make a decent living and seek worthy goals. There’s nothing wrong at all with trying to make money or run a profitable business. One of the problems though, is that from birth we get indoctrinated with how our lives should be. The same was true for my parents. We have to have “things” to find self-worth. It’s a big lie, but it sells products and services.

    The other big problem is when that line is crossed between need and greed. There’s making an honest buck; and making money, the more the better, at any cost. This is toxic human behaviour, along with the lust for power. It destroys people’s lives, causes wars, fuels hatred and engenders so many other undesirable elements in our world. The band War sang, “Why can’t we be friends?” It’s true. Eliminate this type of behaviour and what a much better place the world would be.

    I also stopped to gas up at a station along the route I took to and from the hospital. It often offered, by far, the lowest price on quality gasoline in the area. Today was no exception. Gas was at a great price. Nowadays, of course, when you purchase gasoline you usually have to pay up front, either with a credit or debit card right at the pump, or you go inside and pre-pay the amount you think will fill the vehicle. Like anything else, you get better at judging the amount you need through experience. As I gassed up, I could feel the warm spring sun and the fresh cleansing breeze. What a grand day. Even gassing up was an enjoyable undertaking.

    When I did get home and finished dinner, I worked on recording some new music. My place is just a bachelor suite, but I have enough room because I went with the twin size bed and not the queen size. You would always find my keyboard, guitars and other gear efficiently placed. I basically have five quadrants in my suite: my bed; my adjacent music workspace with a computer that I also use for graphic design and communication; a small living room with a loveseat, television, bookshelves and a small dining table; a small but full kitchen; and, of course, a bathroom with full bath. Encompassed by all of this is the surprisingly roomy hallway entrance. I really don’t need much more and cleaning is easy. Even if I came into a good sum of money, I doubt I would move. On the rare occasions when I have one or two people visit, there is sufficient space to seat us all without being on each other’s knee. lol

    Doing some recording after the great day I already had, was a wonderful way to celebrate. I don’t use sequencing, midi or other such types of gear, I play and record everything in real time. I enjoy the challenge of doing it this way. I have a terrific and versatile keyboard, good acoustic and electric guitars, guitar effects pedals, a nice studio microphone for vocals

    and all sorts of other peripherals. I use a DAW (Digital Audio Workstation) as the interface between the instruments and my computer. It’s how they “talk” to each other. Enough of this boring stuff. What it all enables me to do is create music, my main creative passion.

    Finally, around midnight I called it a day and turned on some soft music. As I lay in bed I reflected on this past wonderful day and felt so blessed. From there I went to oblivion confident I was going to see another day.

  • True Friends

    Your friend sees you in the hallway
    They run over ask “how’s your day”
    Your day is rough you need to talk
    Confide in them as you walk

    It’s nice to know there’s someone
    You can turn to, depend on
    There’s someone

    True friends always there to help you
    True friends always care, pull you through
    True friends always share, love you too
    You just need to be yourself
    Yeah yeah yeah yeah
    Don’t have to be anybody else

    They support you all the time
    Lift you up so you can shine
    Just when it seems you’ve got nothing
    They magically turn it into something

    It’s nice to know there’s someone
    You can turn to, depend on
    There’s someone

    True friends always there to help you
    True friends always care, pull you through
    True friends always share, love you too

    You just need to be yourself
    Yeah yeah yeah yeah
    You just need to be yourself
    Yeah yeah yeah yeah
    Don’t have to be anybody else

    True friends
    They care
    They share
    Yeah yeah yeah yeah